this is madness

everyone is like grabbing at straws
life is fragile and vulnerable

can we call it off?

mull it over

what is the meaning of life?

one minute, we are like having everything at our fingertips

and next minute, everything is at stake and we are broke

dark clouds have silver linings?

i think i should ward off such crap. shit

ice up

i have been living under clouds
every morning i remind myself to get out of the bed
remind myself to breathe in and out
there are millions of tiny things squeeze in
but none of them matters.
i am trying too hard to make my life in place
but i couldn't do it
life is dragging me down
impotent to change anything
i dun want to be in the same fix from time to time
they said the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn
when is the dawn coming then?

Doomsday clock ticking

Time is a rigid cheese
Time is a running river
and i'm here
in a pause mode
can't go nowhere
i'm listening
doomsday clock is ticking
i guess people do have different doomsday clocks
mine is set?
Ready to go?

Paris Lounge

CD 1
goes through freaking nightmares
kisses me to sleep everynight.
BUT

when life collapsed
you don't even need music

dreams soured n withered up

I read this book becoz i've been looking for thoughts that i could count on

but Mitch Albom takes it too personal

his own sentiment is too strong

i dun need those touchy-feely words

i need more from Morrie

purely from his point of view

about the dying, suffering and struggling

The Catcher in the Rye

not a pleasant reading experience
i hate all the whining of Holden Caulfield
though i love his idea of pretending to be a deaf-mute
to enjoy emptiness & isolation of life
i have been embracing this ostrich in the sand mentality so long
especially when the heaviness of being is unbearable.
the origin of the name:
thousands of little kids r playing in a big field of rye
n I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff
what i have to do is to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff
that's all I'd do all day
I'd just be the catcher in the rye.