ice up

i have been living under clouds
every morning i remind myself to get out of the bed
remind myself to breathe in and out
there are millions of tiny things squeeze in
but none of them matters.
i am trying too hard to make my life in place
but i couldn't do it
life is dragging me down
impotent to change anything
i dun want to be in the same fix from time to time
they said the darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn
when is the dawn coming then?